Demons and a Angel....

So, I flaked out, after writing my last post which was also my first post of this blog, I flaked out. I deleted it. It was a little harsh I’m not going to lie I was in a bad place and my thoughts where not my thoughts at the time.

I guess after spending 10 years of your life with someone to see it crumble in an instant and disappear like a drop of water through the cracks of the cement you get a little on edge, you loose yourself, and I lost myself. The person I thought I knew inside and out flew out the window I looked out almost every night before bed. I’ve become the person I never strived to be. A bitch, not caring, well you get the point. I wasn’t me. But one thing I am going to say, I am not sorry for it. I am only human and learning and expanding my mind. After 10 years I learned a lot and still have a lot more to learn. Thus just a reminder to everyone that life does go on.

After 3 months of pure depression, one of the girls at work told me I need to get out there and just talk to other guys and she made me sign up for Plenty of Fish.

So I took the time to write a well not so good introduction to myself. I truthfully hate writing those things, Most of you know that. And with this I decided to let the guys come to me. I wasn’t looking for anything but a friendship, and I remember telling everyone, if I and the x didn’t work I would be single forever. So saying that I let the boys chat with me first. Well after a short week on being on plenty of fish, I got the guts to message this guy. All I said was I thought he was cute. The message I got back short, sweet and of course to the point “your cute, here is my number lets text” the reason for texting was he at work, and it was easier for him to do that, then to sit on the internet.  The rest of the week consisted of texting from 6am to 11pm then from 11pm to 3am chatting on the phone talking about different things. But have you ever had that feeling like you knew the person and seen them in person before…. I sure have…what does this future mean?...